WHERE ARE THE VICTIMS?
And the scribes and Pharisees brought unto him a woman taken in adultery; and when they had set her in the midst, They say unto him, Master, this woman was taken in adultery, in the very act…This they said tempting him, that they might have to accuse him… So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her. - John 8:3-7
I looked back on my past and recalled the one or two times in my childhood whereby I appeared to be the victim. Victimized through the actions of others, yet spiritually speaking: the desires and actions of sinful men who then exercised their sinning upon me.
In digging deeper, I thought of my life of sin before Christ. Recognized how from these one or two victimized experiences as set in place by Satan upon one who was under his dominion (the dominion of darkness), I then instantly became zealous for him and the things that pleased him. Not willingly in word because I did not talk about it, and as far as actions are concerned, they were my secrets. If man were able to see my desires at that time and the intent of my black heart, they would have called me possessed. It was as the law of Moses stating Thou shalt not, triggering something in men born with a sin nature to desire to break it, to go against that law. Having been victimized, it was as if Satan had a quiet thou shalt law, letting me know or having me believe that nothing should be or was off-limits to me. Having been done to me, then it was to act as a permission slip for me to exercise my new rights upon others. I appeared to be a victim who had one or two experiences that left me emotionally disjointed, and my thinking changed for the worst. A little animosity and aggression within me produced an epidemic of sin in action on the outside: From one or two victimized experiences came years of villainous experiences, earning me the conscious title of villain victimizing others.
Finally, combining what I have done with the things that others have done, it can not be called an epidemic of sin within and without. It cannot adequately be named a pandemic because that is too small, and the magnitude of our wickedness combined is too great. It is the extinction of self and damnation of all. Question: I wonder if judging by how many so-called victimized experiences one has had, and the variety of them, does it then impact how long in years one spends as a villain apart from Christ? Without a doubt, the grace and mercy of God are great!!! It abounds above epidemics, far exceeds pandemics, and surpasses extinctions; beyond the self-inflicted disease and well beyond the dilapidating soul of man and lingers eternally in the life, death, and resurrection of Christ. Question: However, I wonder whether persons victimized experiences affect how long they will refuse this grace of God for their villainous life?
Let us reason together: Once one has identified in action what they were already in soul at birth, a villain, are there moments and experiences that can take place whereby they can or should remain titled as the victim? (See Ps.51:5; Job 14:1-4). The Bible says He that is without sin cast the first stone. He that is without villainous activity/deed and has also only in thought and life been victimized, then cast in your ballots on this. The moment you prove to be a villain in intellect, emotions, and desires, then that is the moment you cease to be a victim in the eyes of God. Scripture tells us that man is a few days old and full of trouble and that foolishness is bound up in the heart of a child. Can you ever be a victim again due to the actions of others who are also under satans dominion as you are? Spiritually, outside of Christ, there is no such thing as a victim; outside of Christ you cry and claim your rights and demand justice taken on your behalf. You would not even have to as much as mention it if you had the guts to ask the God who constantly bids you 'come in'. But because you choose to stand alone and unprotected, disappointed He chides, I thought you had your back. In the dominion you are under, in the arena, you play in, one villain can take advantage of another villain in the worst possible way. To onlookers, you are the victim indeed. Look again, Onlooker. Either call them both villains or do not title them at all. The one appearing as a victim in this particular moment in another has villainously done the same things to someone else. Question: Do your eyes and ears offend you because of the incident that you are witnessing as you stand on the wrong side of the saved line? Make a righteous judgment, judge justly in this matter before coming to the ballot of two boxes: FOR –or- AGAINST.
The candidate to be voted on is the sin of those in whom you have caught pants down, and others’ sins that you heard through word of mouth. The sin that you are familiar with, have done before, and are still doing just in another form; it does not appear to the human eye that what you are doing is that heinous at all, but in the eyes of God you are a beast before Him. I don’t desire to beat anyone up with this, but this I know: I am not a coffee drinker, but you cannot talk to me about the taste of tea unless you have had a cup. We have all sipped from the villainous cup, and this is a world full of villains because outside of Christ while you are still in your sins there are no victims.
It is by the grace of God that He has set in place law enforcement to provide order and to seek and secure peace among villains. It was His infinite mind and wondrous mercy that sought to set them up as judges over villainous relations in the world. Moreover, only He can do that, because there are still many in law enforcement and government that although they fight day in and day out to this end, they are still villains without Christ. Villains arresting, trying, prosecuting, sentencing to life, and death other villains; and the world says, how can this be? The world says, “If God exists then why does all this bad stuff happen?” Villains against villains today exist solely because of His righteousness, solely because of His grace, and solely because of His mercy, to spoil the enemies' camp by keeping back what would be if they were in all things on one accord. So you have villains who are more moral than those of the immoral sort, yet both groups by refusing to accept Christ are still in their sins; making them nothing more than villains in whose greatest victories are only awardable by the world.
Finally, amid your villainous life, there may come a moment whereby you appear to be the victim. God uses that terrible experience, circumstance, or disappointment, even your foolish thinking does He use – in your thinking that you could be a victim, to draw you to self-examination, to draw you to Himself. You come to Him asking for relief from the pain that was inflicted upon you, even questioning why it happened to you. Now here is the kick, He gives this inaudible response by speaking to your spirit/heart, to answer you with an answer that cannot be made out in words by you because of the state that you are in when you came unto Him. You don’t know what He is driving at and you are getting frustrated. It is as if He were first writing the answer in the dirt with His finger (Jn. 8:3-9). You couldn’t make out His answer as He was writing directly in your sin, using the instrument of His being which is the Holy Spirit. It was only in your confusion as to what He was doing did He then said it audibly, as to make it scream in you and cause you to abandon your prior concern in coming to Him. He responded, what did He say? You are still unsure mentally, but your heart and soul begin responding to His words in an outward expression that you cannot suppress. You came to accuse another because you felt that you had been wronged, but your now desperate cry for forgiveness from your own villainous life now becomes proof that He indeed has spoken, even answered you concerning the charges you brought forth. He said, “He that is without sin [cast the first stone].”
The penetrating magnitude of His response was so that you would recognize your sinfulness and need for forgiveness, even as He recognized you; which was His purpose for writing in your filth. To focus your attention on your confusion, your insularity, your insecurity, your inadequacy, your lack of mercy and forgiveness, your sinfulness, and yes your spiritual deadness. And then mentioning aloud what can only now speak directly to you concerning only you and sins existence in you. You after expressing true repentance would then be able to leave forgiven of all (2Cor. 7:10-11), and that in your new state of humility His eternal words would be fulfilled in you, “Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted” (Matt. 5:3-4).
This is my testimony for anyone who has ever struggled with homosexuality or lesbianism; for anyone who has ever told a lie, kept many secrets, worked ulterior motives; been involved in fornication of any kind; cursed (spoke badly) toward God or man; for those who have ever hated another; or has ever been angry; for those who have thought about incest; those who have ever thought about taking their own life, or simply just wanted to be in pain to see who would come to their aid; for those who have for so long felt unloved. I once drank from the same villainous cup, and now am changed, so this is for you. And for those who were at the same time in the camp (the dominion of darkness) when I was in, just in another barrack, I pray that this blesses you the way God desires you be blessed.
I believe I was in that camp for thirteen years (birth – 13 yrs.) before I came at His call with my accusatory spirit and He wrote in my dirt. I heard Him faintly in distress, and tears resulted, but it wasn’t clear until He said it aloud and I wailed while I told Him everything and was saved. I was miraculously filled with the Holy Spirit on Dec. 3, 2006 (age 20) upon my persistent requests. It was so that I could live godly and not just go through the motions of Christianity with still a faint taste for the things of the world. From this date, God willing, one day I hope to celebrate my 41st birthday – Dec. 3, 2027, when it is that I will have lived longer in the spirit, walking in the spirit, than I had ever lived in the flesh.
AMEN.
